Walking down this ocean shore
These thoughts in my soulless mind
Having this story you told me called a lore
Listening to everyone say I'll be fine

I wonder how it feels
With no pain
no agony
no heartbreak

Asking this people just answer
"We gotta get you outta there"
Feeling like this is worse than cancer
They see my face and want me to share

I wonder how it feels
To be real
to be happy
to be loved

Living life in the slow lane
There are these voices in my mind
No longer feeling sane
Maybe its a sign

I wonder how it feels
to have your one
to be without feeling worse
to have someone to depend on

Your little girl is growing up
Sitting there in the shadows
No longer going to use a razor to cut
Not going to be one of the cowards

I wonder how it feels
to stand in the rain
to feel the wind
the mist of the ocean

Losing sight of what really matters
Waiting for my saviour
Hearing those words makes my heart scatter
Just love me is the only favor

I wonder how it feels
the love of another
the sanity of it all
the family feeling

Screaming once more even louder
Hearing the put downs from you
Walking toward me wanting to me to cower
Used to be one of the loved, the few

I wonder how it feels
to be wanted
to be one
to be just to be

Call me a liar
Call me a thief
Where's the fire
But I won't cheat

(still working on this)